Not again

Remember those days?
Oh yeah... Those days!
I wish i could have enjoyed them so much more than i did back then
Now they are just part of my memories
A place that i like to visit every once in a while when i start to wonder what happened.

What happened??!
What happened to those days?
Those days when you used to call me every night,
we would spend more than two hours talking about nonsense and making fun of each other.
Those days where we would text nonstop!
Those days where we would be online until 2am in the morning, neglecting school work.
Those days where we had more inside jokes than any other kind of jokes.
Those days where i would share my music with you and you with me
Those days where we would text each other lyrics from our favorite songs
Those days were one word could make us laugh nonstop
Where are those days??
What happened??

It all started with one simple text.
It was followed with a really boring winter break
And it turned into an amazing friendship.
I really thought this would be different
I thought you would be there for me
You were always there for me
You were the first person i went to for everything
Whenever i needed guidance you helped me
It wouldnt matter if it was 2 or 3 am, you would pick up your phone
You would be honest
You would tell me how stupid i was for thinking this way
You would be there to make me feel better
You would support me and check back on me

If i had an exam you would stay up with me all night to make sure i would finish up
you were there the next morning to ask me how it was
you were there to hug me when you found out i failed
You were simply and most importantly THERE.

I always have this voice in the back of  my head,
the voice that tells me to be careful with who i trust.
I have been hurt before,
i have lost friends
Friendships that once seemed to last forever ended in less than a day.
I had hope, i had faith in you.
You were to be different
You were to be those kind of friends that would make me understand
why so many others had left.
But now look where we are?
See how i feel?

What happened to "friends are for forever"?
what happened to  "dont worry, i will never hurt you"?
What happened to  "i love you, flaka" ?
All the corny moments that we wished we never had,
where things were said and done,
what happen to that?


All i want from this is to know that i meant to you as much as you meant to me.
I want you to know that i will still be here whenever you need me,
you will always be in my heart, whenever you decide to come back,
until then ill miss you.
I'll miss those odd moments we had,
all those long talks,
all those stupid jokes,
and all those crazy fights.
I'll miss what it used to be,
and hope that one day things go back to normal.